Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya RAMADHAN

Assalammualaikum… how was ur day?? Well, Ramadhan has come… Diz iz da moment where we should sit back n think how much we motivated ourselves enough…. It has been waited each year… n I hope diz Ramadhan will be much better from my last Ramadhan….

Talking about Ramadhan, where at diz time we hv to take care of our foods, words, ways n a lot of things… sadly, juz before Ramadhan comes, I’ve been tested of hearing such uneasy words which hurt me enough… if I say dat I luv, dat means  I’ll luv it till the end of my life… n I am soooo hate to be the one dat hate u enough.. plz dun make me hate u.. it’ll be much scarier rather than I am angry… however, I am deciding to forgive all those words, actions n wateva u done to me.. I done it in the sake of Allah.. Allah has set us to meet n He the one set us to be separated… I am sooo believe in it… there’s always a reason for everything happened rite…. ;P

Let forget the sad part…. I am very excited to share diz song wif u all.. it’s entitled Hijrah by Muadz… diz song is created based on Hadis and Sunnah…. It was meaningful enough to tell us about sumthing… basically, diz song is stressed on NIAT…  innama al a’malu binniati… it means everything we do must be started wif NIAT… it is very important.. if our NIAT is positive, so we will act positively towards everything dat we done… and so as if u hv bad intention of doing sumthing… which u cannot do it, ok fren!!! 

Here some of the lyrics:

Amalan mulakan dengan niatmu
Dengan hatimu kau berhijrah kepada Nya

Whatever you do
Begins with your intention
Let your heart
Paves the way for the migration

And if the whole world let you down
Left you crying all alone
Change your intention
And surrender your heart to him

Say and believe (Say and believe)
He’s the One (He’s the One)
The only One for you (The only One for me)
He’s always there for you (He’s always there for you)

Tajuk Nasyid : Hijrah
Artis : Mu’adz

When I am hearing to diz song, it remind me of everything I do in my life… I am being fren bcz I want to share wateva I hv, sharing all those happiness n sadness, learn how to become better umat in diz world… but seems, there’s always someone or somebody dat misunderstood…  I am not being ur fren bcz u rich, beautiful or wat-so-eva… I wanna be ur fren is bcz of u urself… how am I to explain more.. I luv u bcz I do luv u.. Allah creates that luv to be separated only for my beloved family but also to u my besties… I am sory for doing wrong during our frenship….diz Ramadhan is da starting point for me to improve myself… I am not being a perfect person… 

i wanna be like diz... can i???

juz hoping I can understand why Allah let me going through all diz… after all, I am stronger than before.. Thank You Allah… 

Tak Mungkin Berpaling

Da best combination of voices.... but still the lyrics are suits enough.. for whom being hurt again n again eventhough, it is very impossible to forget it all n turn back as normal.. but as the first step, i need to learn forgiven all those mistakes without any voice speaks out... i think it's a better way to juz let it be n remain silent as wat i done now... n obviously, there's no turning back cz i'm hurt enough.. as da lyrics goes:


Tidak mungkin kuberpaling lagi 
Salah sangka yang direncanakan 
Gelora melanda 
Adalah dendammu 
Setelah diriku 
Tak mampu menjadi milikmu 

Cukup sudah hati berdarah 
Usah ditambah cerita yang sudah 
Di mana kekasihmu 
Yang pernah kau sanjungi 
Mengapa pula padaku 
Menjadi pelepas ceritamu 
Dan jua sepimu

Usah menabur budi
Mengharapkan simpati 
Sedangkan kau menitip 
Cemburu iri hati 

Tak mungkin kuberpaling 
Padamu yang meracuni 
Rimbunan kasihku 
Sehingga berguguran 
Kelopak cinta kita 
Kerana mu tak lagi mengerti hatiku 

Sehingga berguguran 
Kelopak cinta kita 
Kerana fitnahmu 
Walau segunung sesalmu 
Tak mungkin kukembali 
Cukuplah sekali 
Kejelekanmu
Menggamit pilu 

Tidak mungkin kumaafkan lagi 
Salah sangka yang direncanakan 
Adalah dendammu 
Setelah diriku 
Tak mampu menjadi milikmu 
Sepenuhnya

even i dunno wat actually i hv done in wrong way.. but people keep blame on me.. it's ok.. dun u realise the rule of karma... once u hurt people, u'll get twice of the pain.. i'm not hoping for such kind of revenge.. but diz is life... i'm strong enough 2 face all these... bcz i believe Allah always by my side... n there's a lot of fren dat understand me better than u r... live well n take care! 


p/s: for those who read n being hurt by my words, i'm sory... however, the carpet is mine... which means it's the voice of my heart.... hope u'll understand too... :)

U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.I.N.G

I wanna share sumthing today…  

B4 dat, I wanna ask sumthing…..

Is it really important to your friend or people around u to understand u???

Or is it more important for u to believe in urself dat u r really understand ur self??

In my opinion, I rather choose to believe in myself cuz I noe no one cant understand me better…  I noe wat my strengths and weaknesses are… but this doesn’t mean dat I cant accept wat people think bout  me… as for me, everyone hv their own perceptive and their own way to lead their life… so they are free to talk wat they want.. I hv no power to stop it all… heee~ after all, sumtimes rumours correct my action…

I learn from every seconds in my life… my mistakes, chances, loss, n everything happened to me… I cant blame for any bad thing dat happen cz sumtimes wat we hate the most is actually really good for us rite??? So, how do u noe dat is good for u if u the one keep blame on it… juz let it go.. its happened for a reason not for nothing… J

I’m very grateful dat I hv an understanding family, friends n enemies..hahaha…  dun u realize dat ur enemy is actually is ur good fren??? (I’ll think further bout it… huuu~) Alhamdulillah.. I still can manage my self n my time… everyone got 24 hours rite… no less no more.. n its enough for us rite… I hope wif all my thoughts, I’ll lead a happy n calm life… 

Thanks for all those believe n keep believing in me… I wont forget every single thing of u all cz U ALL THE PRECIOUS THINGS DAT I’VE GOT…  I luv u all wif all my heart…. 

Thank u ALLAH!!!!

GoLdEN OppOrTuNItY At mId vALLey.....

Halu everyone!!! I’m back… I’m back with new spirit + inspiration… hahaha~ guess where I’m spending my time diz weekend…. Well… I got a scholarship interview offer letter last week… n the place was at THE GARDENS HOTEL at MID VALLEY CITY… such a golden opportunity rite… Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me a chance…

So on thursay (22/7) after claz, abah picked me up at college with my beloved mummy… then, next day, I went to MID VALLEY by bus… can u imagine… I’m gone out from my house at 6.30 n only reach to MID at 8.45…. such a long journey… I gotta rush to reach at dat hotel cuz I dun exactly noe where the hotel is.. alhamdullillah Allah helps me out… I reached there on time… then I juz line-up to register my name…

The world of nervous begins… I was really nervous.. cuz this is my first interview program… only Allah knows wat I feel… surrounded with other 26 candidates and most of them are chinese.. how can I compete!!!!! I’m soooo small… wat I’m gonna do….. somebody plz take me out!!!!

The program start with the survey dat must be done each of us… it was under Madam Kim… it was still ok… then, the program was handled by Mr Shahrin, the HR of IGB… at this time.. each of us must present ourself at the front of all people… owh my Gosh!!!!! Really kill me man!!! I try to be calm n think positively…

After that presentation(which is only a practice b4 the real presentation will), we had our lunch… wow!!!! I was soooooo excited… can u imagine, u’ve been treated as a prince and princess… we ate at 5 stars hotel which each person should pay for RM 100++ to eat at that place n we all got for free….. we can eat wateva we want!!!! From malay food, Chinese food, western, Japanese n everything was here….

with syuk (my roomate)

with syuk n indah....

own decorated ice-cream~ yum2~

After lunch…. Here the scary part begins… in front of all the management of IGB Corporation which is about 10 people n 27 candidates, here the challenge started… its feel like there is a butterfly in our stomach.. hahaha~ how hard is it??? I cant answer it… I juz done my turn… well, I’m done… huh!!!! I think if I dun get, it is ok.. coz there more people more needs this scholar….

Then.. at 6.30, we are going to check in…. oops forget to tell… I found a uitm gurl named SYUK… she was very kinf n soft spoken… she’s from t’nu… n luckily we r in same room… we stayed at THE CITITEL at the middle of MID VALLEY MEGAMALL at room 1113…. At 11th floor… soooooooooo high!!!!!

my beautiful room~ very cold up here!!!

shameless bathroom~ huhu~ luckily no one wif me... 

After check-in… we have to go down at 7.10 pm…. Dat for our dinner!!!! N once again, wat a beautiful place n food….. I eat pretty much…. Wow!!!!!!!!!!! Such an honour to eat at this place…  after that, we had a game!!! Wat??? Is there any other interview program have a game??? Hahaha~ believe it or not, we having our treasure hunt at MID VALLEY…. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh~ SUPERB rite!!!!! After finishing that game at 9.15pm, we’ve been given 1 popcorn n 1 drink….. guess it for wat????? We having a movie…. Hahahaha… DESPICABLE ME!!!!! I never imagine it could turn like this… THANKS IGB FOR SPONSOR ALL THIS……. N we ended our nite at 12.00pm…. hahahah!!!! So enjoyable!!!!

we r da lucky gurlz!!! hehe~

1st time watching movie at MID n it is being sponsored!!! 

We wake up at 6.30am… n we having our great breakfast at 8.00am…. then, we r going to level 5 of DEWAN MATAHARI 1… at this time, we r having a career talk n some of us will go for 2nd interview… the career talk was really excitable… the career talk is to know how well our behavior match our future dream job… it is done through the analysis of the previous survey that we done on Friday… for my analysis, MADAM KIM told me dun be sooo nice to people or else people will take advantage of me… is it real?? Am I so nice??? n I got to know that I really suits on my dream to be a lecturer…. N sadly, I don’t be called for 2nd interview… hurmmm… its ok la… at least I know I weakness…. THANKS AGAIN TO IGB CORPORATION for giving me chance to joining this interview program… I hope I can work at this place… I leave that place with beautifully smiling… bye2 MID VALLEY.. I’ll come on other day…

WaLk aWaY...........

Its just enough!!!
So much dat I had…
I should let it go long ago…
But I still accept all those actions…
I kept nicely in my heart…
Never wanted to burst it out…
Never wanted to be shown…
Never wanted to be appeared…
I stand here for once again…
Think all those roses in my hand…
Very beautiful but full of thorns…
Nice in smell but hurt my fingers…
Too much risk, too much sick…
There’s only a way…
Dat I should walk away~

NeW SeMeSTeR aT NeW pLaCe.....

ahlan wa sahlan.... halu everyone!!! how was ur day??? hope everything fine k... at last, i got da time to write on diz carpet... really mish all da moment.. really mish SEGAMAT!!!!

finally, i got a chance to enter UITM SHAH ALAM for continuing BBA (Finance).... Alhamdullilah... Allah answered my prayers... n i'm very lucky cz i get COLLEGE.... haha... if previously in segamat, i get BAIDURI..... now i get MAWAR.... hahhaaha... u know wat... i'm the MAWAR BERDURI!!!!! hahahha....

for once.... whoever stay in SEGAMAT, u all should be thankful... life in UITM SHAH ALAM really kill me... can u imagine i need to go claz dat 3 times far from BAIDURI to DSP.... really tired... but enjoyable... as diz campus is kind of garden concept... so, there still fresh air to breathe... huhuhu~ our classes have not started yet bcz there r many things to be settle... it is such a great experience for me....

how can i tell dat i am very missing all the moment in SEGAMAT.... i wish i could back to there soon... to shidot, teemah, baby, yan, and all... i'm very missed u all..... can u find doraemon for me??? i want to borrow 'PINTU SESUKA HATI'.... hahahha~ once i got chance to get back there, i'll immediately tell u all.... wait for me k!! :)

i would end my post wif this song by FT ISLAND- LOVE LETTER.....

are u doing well?
aren't u sick?
i worry about u without me...
i hope that u eat well even if u r busy...
bundle up when it's cold...
and live strongly without crying...

i worry too much, don't i?
i'm talking too much, aren't i?
i'm only telling u things like a habit...
i keep seeing ur tears...
and so everyday is difficult...

i gave u hard time, didn't i?
i'm so sorry...
i'll let u go now....

pls meet someone good...
and be happy....
i believe that u'll do fine just as i know u will...
i dont want to stain ur smiling picture with my tears...
so today...
i keep on smiling...

hope u all doing fine k... for anyone that could be hurt by my words b4 diz, i'm so sorry... i noe sumthing my words kill people's feeling... need to go now.... wif flying luv, i leave u all now.... take care k.... muahxxxx....

silent................

haluuuu.... i'm back... guess what... juz back from 'place' dat i wanted to go so much but at the end i hv to leave dat place by bringing all da sadness n restless...  huh! so tired.... nothing i can do except juz let it be n gone... tired of being nice to keep one heart in a good condition... i never wanted diz way but it juz came accidentally... am i really da reason of all diz??? can u see i am still standing there for u eventough u never want to look at me at once... i thought i could be by ur side to cheer u up.. but i'm wrong... there's nothing i can do rite??? how could i think dat i can make u happy.... hurmmmm.... i always say to myself that your happiness is my priority... is it wrong?? for me, by seeing u happy is all i ever wanted...

silent... it is so hard to be done... but it is not imposibble rite... let keep all diz in my heart... some other day it will be forgotten... i wish... now i noe u r happy n keep it up... u deserve to be happy... as i said b4, as long as i see u happy, it's enough for me...

silent.........
as i walk through u...
i cant ever see nothing...
only tears come along....
is it for one happiness...?
as i see in ur face...
i wanted to forget all diz some day..
juz give me a strenght n time..
n i promises to vanish n demolish...
all those memories...
hard to get.. hard to be kept...
hard to be reminded...
hard to be memorized it...
seems diz all da way...
i want to walk it through...
and never turn back...
as i came without any regret..
and so i would let it freely ...
there's no reason to be here...