a lonely sad gurl~

assalammualaikum everyone~ from the tittle, u may detect something wrong happens rite... well i guess it's juz an impact of too much laugh... seems i tried so hard to forget it, at last that 'thing' comes first in my mind... wat make me more sad is i'm doing this alone... as usual, a smile on my face doesn't mean i'm happy inside... sumtimes when we want to be positive person, it is such a hard way to walk it through... but rather being negative n suspicious to other person, i'm preferring to be a hard person dat trying to see the other dimension of my problem or issue... it's ridiculous rite but it's not impossible.. once we get through one step, then the whole track is already in our hand! well mr.problem... hush u from my mind!!

HuSh hUsH-pUsSyCatdOLLs

Oooooh ooooh

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs

i never needed pain,i never needed strenght

My love for you was strong enough you should've known.

I never needed you for judgement

I never needed you to question what i spent

I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.

And it's a little late for conversations

There isn't anything that you can say.

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way 

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how i act to what i say

i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way i let go

Of everything i wanted when you came along

But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated

I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations

There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way 

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

No more words

No more lies

No more crying ooh ooh

No more pain

No more hurt

No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah

Because

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way 

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby

well, it's juz a song but very meaningful lyrics... so... can u juz HUSH from my life!!! now n forever!!! :((

King of Anything

hola everyone!!! i found this luvly song at my friend's fb.. its really suits me!!! luv it...

Sara Bareilles: King Of Anything

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for your time
And try not to waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So, you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
Swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up onboard with you
Ride off into your delusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction, oh
But you'll never see

You're so busy making masks
With my name on it in all caps
You've got the talking down
Just not the listening

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I've tried
To make everybody happy while I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe

J.A.N.U.A.R.Y

Hi everyone… it has been a looooooooooooooong time not being in this carpet... wat to do... got so much work to do… first of all, stepping on the new semester which all lecturers called ‘the killer sem  such a nightmare… but somehow I really like the challenge… hw am I going to be success if there’s no challenge at all??? Sure it’s a killer sem since all 6 subjects carry 4 credit hours each of it... Really tough! But I do like it!

Secondly, it was surprised for me! I’m taking driving license diz semmmm!!!! Oh no man! The actual plan was it will be took some other time in semester break... but wat can I say… its O.P.P.O.R.T.U.N.I.T.Y~ I’m sooooo glad…. N there’s also a time of nervous u noe…

is it same as the game?? heeee~

Then, the one thing that came accidentally was a C.A.M.P.I.N.G!!!! I could never imagine dat I was into this camp… wat happened to me??? Seems diz tough sem turned to exciting sem for me… I juz grab all the chances in front my eyes... heeeee~ well, somehow I’m thinking of joining a powerful students association in this university!!! Am I deserved to take the responsibility?? How am I to say this…..? I’m on my way to preparing myself (feel like in a war… hahahaha)

the scene slightly different from this.... heeee~

Well diz week such a busy week for me! Couldn’t get a peaceful rest even one day! Wat to do rite… diz a campus life… heee~ I’m so grateful for get well back after having a hectic fever+flu+cough=too bad… feel so uneasy at dat time as I’m going through alone~ but there’s always beautiful n caring friends besides me…

my beloved classMAD!!! huhu~

my best ever partner!!!! luv u muahxxx

wo de hao pengyou (bestfriend).. huhu~


I think it’s enough for now… January will end soon n there will be February coming s0on.. which is a month of ME! Heeeee~ till then luv u all… muahhhhhxxx… tc yeah 

ISTIADAT KONVOKESYEN UITM KE-73

Assalammualaikum everyone..... wat a nice day ya??? thanks to Allah for lighten n brighten up my day.... it was awesome!!! nway today, i'm OFFICIALLY GRADUATED from UITM... thanks to UITM for giving me a chance to further my studies.... now... i'll share some of my pics of the best moments in related with the convocation today!!!


i'll start wif the day to take the jubah... heeee~ it is on friday (03/12/2010)... i'm wif peah driving to uitm... hahaha syok....!!!! then, we went to sek.7 to pick up all da gurlz... heeee~ wat for??? it's for photoshoot session!!!!

my besties eva!!!!

hoooorrayyyyyy!!! we r officially graduated!!!

After that, we all went back home... the nervous of the real day really disturbing me!!! hahaha~ here, som pics of the real day event~ which is really awesome n full of joys... :))

ANC>>> Thanks to my mom for everything she has done!!! luv u mom!!!

3 supportive families (miza, myra, farah)

my inspiration!!!!

kwn kls degree....

presents for convo~

when i think back wat happen to my house last week.... it such a bad news to me dat all my precious presents is are all missing.... however, Allah the only one knows wat actually happened... so i'll juz leave to Him.... wat eva it is... life must go on....


enough for now.... till the next post, i'll send to thousands of kiss.... muahxxxxx.....

It’s Juz Around da Corner!!!!!

Heeee~ hola everyone… ooopss sory.. ASSALAMMUALAIKUM…. I’m here…. Tadaaaaaa~ wat a busy week… busy wif da wedding, robbery, hang-out wif fren n everything… but wat da most ecxited is CONVOCATION!!!! Finally, I reached at diz level wif flying colours…. ALHAMDULILLAH.. thanks to Allah for the great things happened…. Its was worthy after many things happened in my life… losing a great person by my side (ayahandaku tercinta>>> ROSLI BIN UDA) at the end my part 2 diploma… then, wif miserable love n frenship… about betray n hatred… about relationship n separated… its so great things happened to me… somehow, I gained my spirit n walk away without looking back all those things… we couldn’t juz stay n stare rite… wat more important is learning!!!! Keep on learning as u walk on da street… there’s so much treasure to be search on!!!! Well… I’ll uploading my graduation day as soon I get all those pics… till then, lot of luv….. 

B.U.S.Y

Assalammualaikum everyone!!!! It seems very long time even now is a holiday time…. Wat to do guys… lots work to do, kenduri to be attended, rewang should joined… hahahahaha…. Seriously I never get a time to write sumthing on this wall… so missed on writing in diz wall… now, I'm sitting to re-call back all the song of my heart while I've been far away from diz carpet….

Firstly, I wanna told u'all my DEGREE LIFE…. As I told u b4, it was miserable n unpredictable life… get off early in the morning n only back at 6.30pm… dat is when there no claz in dat nite…. But there a claz on Tuesday's nite… so I hv to go back to faculty b4 6.30pm as my claz is from 6.30 to 8… then hv to walk wif my bestie, peah….. however, there r so much experiences…. The lecturers were superb!!!! Even the claz was bad from segamat, but the air was ok!! N frenz….. wow!!! Unexpected….. it was totally OKAY!!!!

Wif encik shahrul yg gile2… heee.. TERBAIK!!!

2ndly bout EXAMINATION WEEKS…. It was so tough… I had 2 reading papers in two days… however, it wasn't so stressed.. I guess I still can cope wif the time n all the things… thanks to ALLAH… it was a pleasure to hv extra classes especially for subject FIN 538… thanks to encik Shahrul for the commitment….. heeeeee~

3rdly, HOLIDAY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! Heeee~ finally now is the time for rest in peace without thinking any assignment or classes… the brain need a peaceful time rite now… somehow, until yesterday (21/11/2010) there's so many kenduri to be attended n I need to go as a helper bcz it was a long time dat I nvr been 'rewang'.. it was tired but it was fun… hearing makcik2 n nenek2 talking bout their children n the fav question to me àbilo ekau nk kawen???? Hahahahha~ there's long way to go…. 

Waiting for my prince to hand a tepak sirih… heeee

  There's a lot story dat I wanna wrote in diz carpet… however, ingt2 lpe la…. So I'll continue next time… diz week I'll go to subang jaya to attending miza's sis wedding…. Wedding again!!!!! Heeeee~ till then, take care n luv u all…. Muahxxxxx

Its simple being alone

halu... i'm back... sooooo many works to do n again diz nite i dun sleep.. huhu~ being a degree student such a miserable life for me... but it was fun.. lot works to do as much experiences i gained.. its very worthy!

back to my topic.... why am i said so??? it juz my feelings rite.. yeah sumtimes its good to hv an accompany but for this time, i hv chose to be alone... juz me who doing all decision n anything is on meeee~ huhu~ so those people who i push away...... its not bcz u r bad (well mybe some is yeah u r bad)... but the thing is here>>  its juz bout me... its my life... so dun u dare to step again into my life once u thrown me away~ i dun hate u but i dun want u anymore... juz go on wif ur life as u chose b4... nothings bad here... juz understand the way i understood bout u! thank u!