Friday, June 17, 2011

the success is not mine...

assalammualaikum everyone...

i guess u've known by juz read the title of this post... eventually i've got my result.. n sadly, too sad... i didnt manage to reach my standard... its very hard for me, reallyyyy hard~~~ since diz is the first time i couldnt make it through which i'm officially disqualified for getting ANC award as i get during my diploma, i'm totally blank when i saw my result... but luckily i hv those people who loves n care for me... thanks to my hao pengyou (bff) hanisah, the sygsss, cik sabar a.k.a syawallia , si nona manis siti hajar, titi n ema... not forget i long2 time fren, aina tubby2... u all very supportive... i know i'll make it through but its still about time... juz let me let out the sadness n diappoinments, then i'll make a move... i know n always know, Allah knows better than me... i'll accept it as a test of being a better muslimah... insyallah... but now, still crying deep in my heart... juz let the nite gone as the bad feeling will disappear soon.. prays for the best to me n all of us...

lots of luv~~~ mya

Saturday, May 21, 2011

CiNtAkU HanYa BuAtMu~

assalammualaikum semua.. 

disaat semuanya terlena di buai mimpi indah, namun diri ini tidak mampu melelapkan mata walaupun kepenatan seharian keluar berjalan-jalan bersama adik tersayang... dalam fikiran ini masih lagi terbayang jalan cerita yang bagiku sangat menarik dan bisa membuat otak ini mengolah tanpa henti... 


Nur Kasih The Movie.. satu cerita yang menunjukkan betapa agungnya cinta yang terbina dari keikhlasan demi keredhaan Allah s.w.t semata-mata... sungguh terharu dan cukup menusuk kalbu... ku kira cerita ini adalah satu lagi koleksi cerita kegemaranku selain 'Ketika Cinta Bertasbih'... mesejnya cukup sempurna di mana Allah menjadi tunjang utama kepada setiap bait cinta yang diluahkan, menjadi satu titik-tolak keagungan kuasa Dia yang tiada tolok bandingnya... hanya Dia yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk diri ini... 

mampukah diri ini menerima lelaki yang bukan menjadi pilihan hati
mampukah hati ini meredhai setiap yang dialami seperti nur amina
mampukah diri ini bertahan walau dugaan itu cukup besar bagiku

dan mampukah lelaki itu menerima apa adanya aku
dan mampukah lelaki itu setia memimpin ku ke jalanMu
dan mampukah lelaki itu di sisiku tiap kali aku terjatuh seperti Aidil

bukan kesempurnaan yang ingin aku miliki
biarlah kekuranganmu menjadi kekuatanku
dan kekuranganku menjadi kekuatanmu

andai kamu telah tercipta untukku, ku harapkan Allah menyatukan hati kita walau apapun keadaannya...
andai jodoh kita sudah tertulis, ku doakan biarlah kau menjadi yang terakhir buat diriku...
andai takdirku bukan denganmu, ku harapkan kamu yang kucintai tetap bahagia dengan apa yang kau miliki...

tiada makna sebuah cinta yang dibina tanpa keredhaanMu,
tiada bahagia andai bukan jalanMu yang ku pilih...
tiada ketenangan yang dirasai andai bukan keranaMu Ya Rabbi...
hanya padaMu Ya Allah kami memohon segalanya....
aminnnnn~

salam sayang buat semua <3



Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Getting Self Unpacked~~~

-Assalammmualaikum-

Alohaaaaa everyone~ weeeee~ yesterday is the end of 4th sem Finance student.. n u noe wat! i only got 1 more sem for study n 1 more sem to be done my practical work!!! yahoooo~ cant wait to finish it up! 

but somehow, deep in my heart i felt sooooooo wooried :(( this sem was very, very n very tough sem for me... i so scared of i couldnt make it through... yesterday b4 sleep, i told my BONDA... 'mama, sory ye kalu xdpt DL sem ni'... its so sad n hard for me to telling all this... thus, i need to calm myself down n redha of wat i'll going to get... >_<

well i need to unpacked my stuff!!!! bcz tmrw i need to go back to uitm s.alam as i've got another programme to be done.. n i'm near to get my driving license... weeee~ hope everthing will be fine.. till then, lots of luv... muahxxxxx ;p

Saturday, May 7, 2011

~deactive~

how am i explain this...??? i'm juz getting tired of being a best+ understandable +caring person beside u... yes i might not knowing who really u r.. n even we never met for once.. but somehow i believe we can be friend... but now, u point me wrong... wat exactly in ur mind? wat exactly u think about me?? i juz want to be a friend that could be ur tears n ur laughs.... am i so wrong...? n heyyy come on! i'm in my final exam week! could u be an understandable fren for once!!! n i'm having 2 straight papers that much more important... if u still n still behave like this, its preferable to be alone than having u!!! juz get my head spinning around thinking of u!!! n becoz of u n 'that person', i made a decision of deactiving my FB!!! i couldnt stand of urself... from now on, get urself by ur own!!! dun ever turn to me! lets the time kill everything... end of us!!!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

~sarangheyo~

kadang hati ini xmampu utk meluah...
kadang mata ini xmampu menahan...
kadang jiwa ini meronta ingin dilepaskan...
namun apakan daya semuanya tersimpan di sudut hati...

kadang diri ini lebih rela dibebani....
kadang diri ini sanggup disakiti...
kadang diri ini rela menangung segala derita itu...
namun apakan daya semuanya hanyalah sekadar kenangan....

hati ini bukan utk dilukai...
diri ini bkn utk disakiti...
hadirnya dirimu ku anggap satu rahmat...
perkongsian suka duka sehati dan sejiwa....

hati ini bkn utk dipermainkan...
diri ini bkn utk diperkotak-katikkan...
diriku cuba menjadi yang terbaik...
namun mungkin dia lebih baik dr diriku yg kerdil ini...

apa yg kuingin hanyalah kesetiaan,
kejujuran yang membawa kebahagiaan...
andai inilah jalan yang terbaik,
seikhlas hati aku redha...

jauh di sudut hati aku mendoakan yang terbaik utk kamu yang sangat kusygi... mungkin kau bkn milikku... pergilah kepada yang sepatutnya... tiada kuasa lagi ku utk menolak segala kuasaNya... biarlah cinta itu ku semat di hati utk insan yang lebih berhak kelak.... selamat kau berbahagia dgn kehidupan barumu itu....

Thursday, March 10, 2011

need a time~

there's so many things happened...
there's so many scars left...
there's too much of tears...
there's too much hurt...

once in my heart, there's always be in my heart...
i'll forgive but somehow i need a time to forget...
it's not bcz i hate u so much...
but its juz really about time!

u'll never know what my feel rite now...
as no one knows deep in my heart...
i really care, i really luv...
in the end i'm the one suffer..

in the melody of heart, i'm missing u...
in the rhythm of mind, i do caring for u...
in the deep of myself, i really do luv u...
but in the end of the day, i have to let u...
let u to decide which way u wanna go...
i wont stop, i wont block
as the decision u made,
its on ur self...

by time, i will be much stronger....
by time, i will become more eager...
n by this time there's always flowers in my mind...
as i could rest in peace for the time left behind...

AwEsOme week!!!!

such a hectic life when one happened in once! can u imagine i am holding a portfolio as the class representative of OPKIM PERDANA SELANGOR 2011 which need me to complete this project within two weeks or less i think.. huhuhu~ at first, i'm really afraid of holding another responsibilities but somehow my heart is eager to catch the job! wat a packed schedule for this week...

saturday (5 mac) - in-charge of Part 2 modul (explorace) n online quiz
sunday (6 mac)   - a sad story happened!
monday (7 mac) - monetary quiz
tuesday (8 mac)  - derivatives test
wednesday (9 mac) - OPKIM last meeting
thursday (10 mac) - Petronas seminar, investment analysis test, taklimat OPKIM to members 
FRIDAY (11 MAC) - driving class n ????? its the beginning of OPKIM 2011

hahaha~ so how was it??? great rite?? chang3~ such an another awesome week.... somehow i managed to forget wat really need to forget n re-arrange back my self as i step into UiTM Shah Alam for the 1st time... again i've been abandoned n feels rejected... but no sympathy or wat-so-eva.... i really dun need it!!! now i've set up back my mind n there's no turning back.... 

so wat will be my future plan for becoming week???

sunday (13 mac) - come back from gombak setia (perhaps not very tired)
monday (14 mac) - again monetary quiz (pray there's no quizzes >_< ) n group discussion on Islamic bankg
tuesday up to next day still not planned yet as the brain has stopped at its maximum condition... :((

really tired but i treat all this as the preparation for the work... perhaps i can teach my self to be strong enough to face all the challenges now n future... very sleepy rite now... zzzz.ZZZZZzzzz nitto!